A Decision…Concentrating on Painting
October 31, 2007
|Pele, silk carving
17″ x 48″
©2003 Petra Voegtle
Today I came to a decision: blogging about this and that, ranting about this and that is taking too much time off my real work as an artist. There are hundreds if not thousands of blogs out there with people trying to sell themselves, ranting and howling about who’s in and who not, thousands of pages about stupid things and things that are supposed to be funny – in many cases the “fun” escapes my understanding – and I think it is not because English is not really my mother tongue – they are all sucking the energy out of me that I desperately need for my work. Now THAT is supposed to be fun.
I will not continue to hunt for views and hit statistics – this can become quite an obsession – I will write when I am in the mood for writing – and I will write about my work and hope that someone will have fun reading about it and if not – who seriously cares about this?
I am very passionate about my work – not in the way that I am chasing for appreciation and affirmation at all means. That was really necessary quite at the beginning where you normally don’t have sufficient self assurance. It is a good motivation though if you continue to receive affirmation and encouragement that is meant seriously. I wished I got more feedback from exhibitions – especially where I cannot attend myself. How on earth should I know what went good or bad? Why do people always assume you already know about it when you haven’t been there? And sales are not always the culmination of everything.
No, I am passionate about my work because it finally has become the sense of my life. What else do I need then?
|Ho’okipa, silk carving
16″ x 46″
©2003 Petra Voegtle
Currently I am painting, on silk and on rayon. And my favourite subject is painting dreams, dreams of places I have been and dreams of places I would like to be. Is something wrong with that?
I fear I will always be that kind of artist who stays outside a box and that defines me an outsider. Outsiders are suspect, do not run with the majority, are different. Am I so different? Admittedly I am probably thinking too much, I am touching sensitive issues people don’t want to hear about or they don’t like the answer to a question. People don’t want to hear the truth. And sometimes I am simply so frustrated that this needs a valve. I am just an ordinary human also. Maybe I should take that in consideration in future.
A visitor I had lately in my studio told me that he had never seen works such as mine. I surely think he was honest. Besides my current work I showed him my silk carvings (sculptured reliefs from one single piece of silk, a technique I invented) – such as above and below. He was very intrigued.
I often think about what people might expect from me as an artist. This is possibly a mistake. I am how I am. I cannot hide my character on long term which means I always try to be honest and open, I do not pretend something that I cannot sign wholeheartedly.
But I am in a dilemma that many artists face: if you want to make a decent living from your art and if you don’t have any substitute income it is very difficult to hold on to your principles and ethics on one side and be commercially successful on the other. So what would be the best advice to handle this?